On the Days That I Just Can’t…

This has been one of those weeks. I think we’ve all had them. Those times when it feels your heart is beating so loudly you’re just certain that anyone standing within 10 feet can surely hear it. When it feels like an elephant is sitting on your chest, and it’s difficult to even catch your breath. That has been my entire week. These chest-compressing, stressful days may be caused by work stress, or personal stress, or health stress, or relationship stress- take your pick of which stress, or could be a combination of some or perhaps even all of them. Anyway, it’s reminded me that regardless of how positive a person one tries to be, or how much one loves and trusts in the Lord, we all have those days of feeling like we just can’t. Can’t cope. Can’t think. Can’t function. Can’t make it. Can’t do it. Some days, maybe even can’t move. It’s paralyzing. Have you felt this? I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.

I know the Scripture. I know there are numerous places I can go and find verses that tell me to call out to the Lord, trust in Him, lean into Him. I know I can pray. I do, often. I know He hears. There are days I wish I could reach out and physically touch Him. Would that make my faith stronger in these times of weakness? Is that why He sends us angels here on Earth that manifest themselves in the form of my family and friends? The same sweet, supportive family and friends who allow me to come to them and say, “I’m weak and I’m tired.” Family and friends who, without missing a beat, reply, “Then, let us carry you.”

This has been one of those weeks. I’m strong, but I’m weak. I’m a person who sees the good, but I’m so saddened by all the bad. I like to look at the bright side, but lately, so much darkness seems to be seeping in through the cracks. The world is tough. It’s a difficult path to navigate. Circumstances aren’t always fair, and they don’t always work out how we’d like. That’s life though, isn’t it? We aren’t promised an easy ride, but we are promised eternal life for the asking, and blessings for the receiving.

Just pray for me. If any of you are in need, I’ll gladly pray for you. This has been one of those weeks. But the beauty is, I know Hope is here, and joy is just around the corner. It always is. Our job is to hold on.

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