This House

I sit in this house tonight amazed at the hand of God. 

This is the house that my husband and I walked into 3 years ago and immediately fell in love with the hardwood floors.  This is the house where I prayed silently that God would allow us to be granted the good fortune of having our offer accepted.  This is the house our children joyfully ran through and claimed bedrooms.  This is the house where we planned to raise our family together.  This is the house we eventually moved into and started planning our life.

It was in this same house that turbulence slowly seemed to find a home.  It was in this house that my children were witness to scenes they should have never known.  It was in this house that I hid away in a bathroom and cried out to the Lord to give me guidance and wisdom.  It was in this house that we talked numerous nights about what was happening to us.  It was in this house that names were called and words were said which did more damage than any hands ever could have done.

This is the house where I stood last year and answered a door to receive a piece of paper telling me my marriage was ending.  It was on these beautiful hardwood floors that my child stood beside me not understanding why mommy was crying at the paper in front of her.  This is the house where I systematically began removing furniture and clothing while making plans for a new house, a new life.  This is the house where I walked into my children’s empty rooms for the last time before leaving my keys and walking away.  This is the house where I felt the bottom drop out of me.  This is the house where the tension levels were so great that something had to give- that something was me.

This is the house that I used to drive by and look at from the street thinking of all the memories which had been shared.  This is the house which we had claimed as our own.  This house was now a place I no longer had access to.  This is the house we would battle over in court.

This is the same house that I came to five months later and said, “Surely this is not the will of God for our family.”  This is the house where we sat for hours and cried and searched our souls.  This is the house where we both chose forgiveness.  This is the house where we reclaimed our family.  This is the house we dedicated to our Lord.

This is the house that I sat in last week in a room full of new friends praying together and reading the Word of God.  This is the house which is now centered in Christ.  This house, and its beautiful hardwood floors, is the place our family is being rebuilt.  This is the house which, only through the power of God, has become our home.

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17 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Leah Brooks
    Apr 06, 2010 @ 21:20:06

    Beautiful Amanda!

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  2. Amy Ivey
    Apr 06, 2010 @ 21:36:52

    WOW! How touching and sincere! I pray for God to continue to bless you, your family, and your home!

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  3. mandaclair
    Apr 06, 2010 @ 22:02:00

    Thanks, Leah and Amy!

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  4. Kelly S.
    Apr 06, 2010 @ 22:15:32

    Redemption! Praise the Lord!! Thanks for sharing that beautiful story:-)

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  5. Pat Lenzini
    Apr 06, 2010 @ 22:38:45

    Dear Amanda, Beautiful and real, that is why my heart and spirit is in tune with yours. I love real and truth, I love you. You are loved so as I by our Lord Jesus and saviour.

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  6. Amy
    Apr 06, 2010 @ 22:42:37

    WOW! I remember praying you all got that house as well…;)so glad you are still there in that special house of…the Elder/Silvers’;)

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  7. Dawn M W
    Apr 06, 2010 @ 23:06:50

    You really have a way with words. I praise the Lord along with you for restoring your family! His mercies never end!

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  8. elfinfun
    Apr 07, 2010 @ 04:59:34

    I am so thankful that peace and restoration have come to that house. I’m glad our talks are of the future of our lives and not our past and what-ifs. I’m so proud of you for doing that hard work and trusting that God is big enough. I love you, sister.

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  9. Brenda Curtis Becker
    Apr 07, 2010 @ 07:06:54

    Amanda, I am lost for words after reading THIS HOUSE… it certainly reminds me of so many doors, that opened and shut for me and my life. I praise the Lord, for you sharing this with so many and myself. I will be praying for you and your family constant, God is so good, for some it is hard for them to see it…. if we don’t share with others these stories, we might be holding them back from knowing Jesus. Thank you Amanda for obeying God and sharing to others… God Bless You …. A true testimony that is one to shared…. Thank You Jesus. I am so excited to see what God has in His plan for you and your family!

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  10. Donna Bailey
    Apr 07, 2010 @ 09:27:24

    Love it!

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  11. Ann Trent
    Apr 07, 2010 @ 13:25:11

    Amanda this is so sweetly said. You are so precious and I love you dearly. Thanks for wanting your marriage to work.

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  12. Lisa Brewer
    Apr 07, 2010 @ 13:27:50

    Beautifully written, Amanda! God truly has blessed you, your family and your home!!! You have a God given talent for writing! Please keep using that talent!!!!!

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  13. Jan Lee
    Apr 07, 2010 @ 17:59:02

    Amanda,
    You never cease to amaze me. I had no idea of your turmoil. I am so proud of all you do. I have had more doors open and close for me than I know what to do with. I still see you guys at the house down below me, in my minds eye. I am glad you didn’t go too far. We have been down the same road in a lot of ways. Thank God things worked out for you all. I’ve been there done that, got a tee-shirt and wore it out. I am now proud we loved each other enough to keep fighting for our marriage. I loved him so much. We kept our vows, til death do us part. I am truly thankful. Keep on keeping on for the Lord as you encourage others. I love you!!!

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  14. barbara
    May 29, 2010 @ 07:16:20

    Amanda, I know that God had a hand in this post, and He is smiling as each person reads it………….

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  15. Liz Woolridge
    May 30, 2010 @ 22:27:55

    Amanda,
    You and I have never really “known” each other in a deeply personal way so it comes as no shock that reading this was a surprise to me. What I am NOT surprised about it your willingness to share this piece of agony, then Victory in your life and your love. My prayers are that God just continues to bless and heal your family. This is a testimony of your Faith in His Word and His Will in your life. I am blessed through your written word.
    With admiration and Respect
    ♥,
    Liz

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  16. Angela
    Jun 08, 2010 @ 07:56:42

    Amazing!!! Matt.19:6 What God has joined together… let no man put asunder. May your family be blessed. 🙂

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